I've tried a few times to write something worthy of Tubbs and the 13 years we've spent together, but I can't seem to get it together long enough to do it. Tomorrow morning I will drive him for his final vet appointment. My emotions are swimming in my body and I'm trying my best to stay in the now. He is here now. He is sleeping just ten feet away. I'm trying not to think about tomorrow. Because after tomorrow the world will be a totally different place.